Goodbye New Zealand

The day has finally arrived. I have left my country to move on the otherside of the world. 

I have it easy. I am not fleeing my country. I also have Skype and so many other social networks to stay in touch with people. I am one of the lucky ones. 

Currently I am in Transit. Waiting at Singaporw Airport Changi. 

Leaving was easier than I thought. I wasn’t feeling anxious which suprised me. My mother cried, I’ve already called her to let her know I am okay. I am ready for the new chapter. New challenges and experiences. 

Of course being jobless and jobless isn’t glamorous. It is a very bizarre feeling. Very freeing. 

Excited for the Top Deck tour and exploring the sites. We got to do a mini tour of Singapore that the airport offers for free.


It is so beautiful. Very green. The gardens are superb. If it wasn’t for the humidity I would love to live here. 

Next stop London. 


Making a Murderer

I, like everybody else, just watched Making a Murderer in Netflix. IF you haven’t seen it.. Go watch it. Now.

I want to start out by making it clear by saying do not know if Steven Avery is guilty or innocent. My opinions are have been formed by watching the documentary (which has a high chance of being biased and edited) and what I have briefly read online. I don’t think anyone can know the truth without a confession due to the fact that the case against him was built from a witch hunt more than sufficient evidence. Which leads me to say.. HOW THE FUCK IS THE SYSTEM THIS UNFAIR?

I also want to express my sympathies towards Teresa Halbach. The poor poor young lady who did not deserve what happened to her- it is truly awful. She deserves justice.

Steven Avery is an American man – with a colorful background. It doesn’t sound like he was a particularly good man as he had been in jail for burglary, animal cruelty and assault.  In 1985 he was accused of a brutal rape and jailed for 18 years. After years claiming his innocence fit tears, a DNA test cleared him of this crime. It is believed that because of his troubled past the investigation of his case was unfair and unjust. A lot of people (it seems) could of prevented this if they hadn’t been ignorant and did their job properly.

After being released he, as most of us would, went after the system seeking  compensation (36 million) for the big fuck up job that they had made on his case. The people who were involved in the investigation for his wrong conviction were facing a huge lawsuit which would impact them heavily especially since their Insurance wouldn’t cover them. 

 Then a woman goes missing. A woman whose last whereabouts, conveniently, was the Avery farm.

Right from the start the police did a poor poor job at investigating this case. They had a target on who they wanted to be responsible for the murder Steven Avery. I mean this is gold for everyone involved, if he committed the murder they can get out of all the trouble they are in. At the time Steven was making them look like fools. I think they wanted this to be true so badly, they convinced themselves Steven Avery had murdered her. Maybe he did but they compromised their investigation from the start that it is impossible to fairly prosecute him.

They didn’t (from what I have read and seen) investigate any other suspects efficiently. In fact they made it pretty easy for someone to easily set up Steven, as their focus was on him from the start. And then those two idiot cops got involved and just happened to find evidence that magically seemed to appear. I think they they may have panicked because the current evidence isn’t sufficient enough. Without the evidence they had no real case and their careers and reputation have a lot riding on whether Steven was found guilty or not. That is a lot of motivation to manipulate or even plant evidence to ensure they have solid evidence to arrest and convict him. We are all human and have convinced ourselves to do something wrong and stupid to ensure an outcome that we desperately needed – they just took this stupidity to the extreme and perhaps costed two innocent men their lives and set a killer free. (Keep in mind this is all speculation but a lot of people are convinced. And yes this could be heavily argued but there is no actually evidence this has happened.)

Which leads me to Brendan Avery. This poor lost soul was 16 at the time of the murder. Brendan appears a little slow and is obviously easily manipulated. The police acted like fucken assholes and used this against him. If you watch his confession tape he is clearly being coerced into  saying whatever the prosecutors need to hear. I honestly teared up because I felt so sorry for the boy. I don’t believe had had anything to do with it. His story makes zero sense. The time line is off. The way he described the scene would be impossible without any evidence.  And there was not a shred of evidence putting him at the scene apart from his confession – a very unreliable chasing confession.

Sadly, as you can see in the film, they were both found guilty for the crime. They were doomed from the start. After Ken Kratz and his smug face kept talking to the media and ruining any chance Steven and Brendan had at an unbiased trial.

Ken Kratz is a man I don’t have anything nice to say about. I do agree with Kratz that the film makers had cast him as the “villian” and manipulated the story to make a good dramatic story (just like he does for a living). He just appears he is an egoistical, narcissistic and not a very nice man and this isn’t just over the Avery case but his actions as a person. His methods didn’t seem fair or ethical at all but that is the way the system works.

Kratz has come out and said they missed “key” evidence out. From what I read, minus a potential motive which the judged wouldn’t let into the case as it seems to be hearsay, they used most of the important pieces evidence. Nothing left out of the documentary proved he was guilty beyond a reasonable doubt.

Steven’s lawyers were amazing. They really did their job to the best of their ability. I think this is why the verdict was so shocking at the end. They provided enough information, and to some extent, disproved a lot of the prosecutors main arguments. Did they convince me he was 100% innocent? No (Well at some points they almost did but that was also due to the editing of the documentary). Did they cast doubt on the fact he was guilty? Hell yeah.

This documentary was very eye opening on how the system DOES NOT work. This man was previously in jail for 18 years for a crime he did not commit just because one woman, who had been through a  traumatic experience, was influenced by a police officer. Then jailed again, along with this simple nephew, on insufficient evidence and a flimsy investigation.  How often is this happening? How man innocent people are in jail right now?

I don’t know if Steven Avery is innocent. He needs a fair trial. A proper investigation needed completed looking at more than one possibility.  Teresa deserves this.  She deserves justice. 

Goodbye 2015

2016 is upon us. Time is going so fast.

It feels just like yesterday I was on the shores of Fiji, soaking up the sun looking forward to the future.

2015 was an interesting year. No major events BUT a lot of personal growth. Highlights include, the village tour in Fiji, Masquerade, Ed Sheeran concert, meeting Meerkats, Dinner at Hippopotamus for free, Meeting Russell Brand and jumping of the Sky Tower.

It was filled with amazing moments. And I feel like can only get better from here.

Next year of course is going to be completely different. New country. New job. New experiences. Sadly I say goodbye to some amazing people but adventure awaits!

My goal this year is to get set up in England. I want to start me career officially, put 100% into my job and gain a great reputation. I want to travel – lucky for me in 14 days I will be in Paris and setting out on a Europe tour. I also want to get down to 55kgs, which has been the goal for the previous two years. I got pretty close the last few years but can’t seem to break the 58kg mark. I want to maintain a Vegan diet. Resist the urges towards the darkside. Experience as many things as possible. Take every opportunity I can. Read 100 books (I got to about 75 this year).

I am very hopeful about 2016. It is all up to me to make this an epic year.